Originally posted on Facebook HERE
I feel a little like Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz today, at the end when she wakes up and it all felt so real… I’m home. Three weeks in Florida, wrote an entire book (17 chapter plus intro and epilogue, will take 2 – 2 1/2 hours to read approximately). And now I’m back like nothing ever happened. Beautiful day here in Wisconsin. We took a long walk with Gizmo this morning. “There’s no place like home”. Tomorrow I’m back to work. I have a job, a wife, a routine… huh. A routine. I had a routine in Florida, too. It involved waking whenever I felt like it, eating whenever I felt like it, writing whenever I felt like it, meditating whenever I felt like it, and running whenever I felt like it… at whatever pace I wanted to go. Big difference from the routine I left. That was more “up at 5:30am, eat, get ready, gym 7:30, work 9:30-7:00pm Mon-Thu, 9:30-5:00 Friday, 11:00-5:00 Saturday… Sunday off. There was never enough time in the day to get everything done, at work or elsewhere. Sunday was the only day off. Didn’t really feel like doing much, I was so burnt out from the rest of the week. So I realized right away early on in the Florida trip I was carrying way more tension than I thought. The entire trip, everything went so well, the place I rented was fantastic, the people I met were great, the writing came easily, and I started to realize how much control my ego had over my life. The book “Feed Your Angel” is now subtitled “overcoming our addiction to ego”, because I saw that almost all of us are addicted to the minds version of reality based on what has happened to us in the past, and not living from our centers, our souls, our “God” presence where an ocean of love awaits if we will just look within and live from there. I certainly was. I’ve gone through alcohol and drug treatment, I know what it feels like early on – exactly what the emotional release was when I got to Florida. We have bodies, we have minds, we have souls. The body is your vehicle. The mind is your computer. Issued at birth, taken at death. The computer is housed inside the vehicle. Where are you? You control the two gifts you were given at birth. You’re not the voice that never shuts up (the mind), you’re the part that notices the voice. When your mind is driving you crazy, who notices it? You do. The problem is we so often let the computer run the show based on programming we’ve given it from our past experiences. The computer than just tries to recreate good events, and avoid bad ones. We start to desire outcomes based on our past, which pretty much always dooms them for failure, instead of just enjoying the things in our life as they come. Once you realize this, you can step back into the part of you that knows only love and start living from there. Just like recovering from drugs and alcohol, it takes time. “Home” hasn’t changed, but I have. 4/9/18 I entered treatment for my addiction to ego. Past events were building up and blocking love from getting in or coming out. I tore down a lot of those walls in three weeks, but it’s a lifelong process. You have this fantastic piece of machinery, the greatest super computer ever built – your mind. You can use it in any way you want to. Despair and anxiety wasn’t what God had in mind. When you notice the mind getting upset, who is it that notices? That’s where you are. That’s the part that is in touch with unconditional, timeless love. The more you see and touch it, the more you’ll live from there. And when you start living from there, the blockages will begin to go away and you will start to know love as your birthright. Step one: admit you’re powerless over ego, that your life has become unmanageable. Step two: Came to believe that a Power great than ourselves could restore us to sanity. Not sure you need the other ten steps 
