Originally posted on Facebook HERE
Greetings from the Fairfield Inn in Verona, WI. Late show, long drive home last night = get a room. And today is the 468th weekly “looking out my back window” post I’ve done, which means next week will start my 10th year. Wow! Where does the time go?… this will also be the last one written in “one long paragraph” format, as I’ll be switching to paragraphs next week as suggested by one of my Facebook friends. I have no idea what or why I started doing this back then. I didn’t really have a plan that I remember. I just took a photo out the back window and wrote, then I did it again the next week. I’ll have to go back to the first “looking out my back window” book and see what I was writing back then I guess. I’m sure it was basically me, looking at my life and wondering “how did I get here?”… or “is this the best I can do?”… or “am I living my best life?”… etc… I write three pages a day every day in my journal. I’m always trying to be aware of opportunities as they arise. And for nine years now I’ve also been writing these posts and sharing them publicly every week, as I try to figure out ways to the best person I can be mentally, spiritually, and physically. And wondering — you know — do other people feel this way? Are we happy? Are we healthy? What regrets would you have if today was your last day alive? I have so much I want to do yet. As we age, the reality of death begins to loom over us… I’ll be 67 next month. My father was 71 when he died. I have accomplished a lot in my life. I’m sober. I’ve played on numerous recordings. I’ve written several books. I’ve built a fairly large financial services business. I’ve influenced the lives of hundreds, if not thousands of people in a positive way. And yet… I wonder… have I done enough? Can I do more?… being human often means a lot of wondering if we’re truly happy, if we’re really giving it all, if we are doing enough, being enough, loving enough… for me, anyway. After nine years I think I still have more questions than answers. I really do appreciate those of you who have come along for the ride this far… what a great ride it’s been. Today?… I plan on doing the best I can with the abilities I have to be the best person in can be. That’s all we can really ask for, right? I’m looking to approach the day with love in my heart, and the knowledge that no matter what life throws at me there is always a silver lining. Have a great day and thank you for the support along the way…