Originally posted on Facebook HERE
Grey day today. Little rainy. You can feel Winter coming, and the clocks turned back last night. I never know what I’m going to write about when I do these weekly posts. I just take the photo and go. And I hope that whatever comes out resonates with you. I guess I’ve been thinking a lot about tension today. I feel like I have so many things going on with my life that there’s always a kind of “buzzing” that never goes away. I called a colleague of mine a while back, asked him how his day was going and he said “Busy. Some days I just sit here and shake.”… I knew exactly what he meant. I cant help but wonder if having an underlying anxiety that never goes away is really what God would want for us, though. I certainly don’t think this is something I’ve had my entire life. But my business has grown to the point I’m one of the largest in the country for my firm. That means servicing hundreds of people. We have a new CD project the Twistin’ Egyptians are working on. The Steve Trier Band is practicing and playing shows. I recently had my websites redone and consolidated so they all forward to davidgeschke.com and I have some tweaking to do there and then some marketing once I decide to do the rollout. I’m planning a four part series of talks to be held in Beaver Dam on Tuesday nights from Jan 9-30, 2018. I’m pretty committed to publishing two books in 2018 as well, one will be a compilation of the first 52 of these “looking out my back window” posts, the other will finally be the project “Feed Your Angel”, which I’ve been talking about for years. We had tons of things going on at home (mound system, new garage roof, new electrical, etc) recently. In the middle of it all was a 10 day vacation. I’m running a large meeting for my company next week – and I’m currently Vice President of another local business group in Beaver Dam as well. I’m sure I’m forgetting things, but when you have this much going on, I find myself kind of always “on alert”. Like, no matter what I’m doing there’s ten other things lurking trying to get my attention. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not complaining. I enjoy doing all the things I’m involved in. But for a long time now, I’ve been wondering about whether I could maybe start structuring my days to ease the tension. My favorite time, every week, is Saturday and Sunday mornings. I take time to write (I actually journal every day, but the weekends give me more time to do it without feeling rushed), read, meditate (I have tried for years to get a daily meditation practice going, so far unsuccessfully. The past does not equal the future. I keep reminding myself of that.) and write these posts. Why can’t l start every day like that? Of course, I can. I just need to rearrange things and commit. I really feel like I should be running every day, too. I did that for years. I also woke up daily, read, wrote and meditated for years at one point in my life (early in my recovery from addiction). I never felt better physically than I did when I ran consistently. Mentally, I know that starting each day reading, writing and thinking about positive and/or spiritual material sets the entire day up for success as well. The “tension” I feel is something I created. When properly centered, approaching the day with a loving heart, the same day can be spent with no tension. I guess that’s why they say: “Before enlightenment – chopping wood, carrying water. After enlightenment – chopping wood, carrying water”. My current schedule can certainly be tweaked to add more love and joy to my daily activities. Can yours?