Looking Out My Back Window #37

Originally posted on Facebook HERE

Daylight savings. “Lost” an hour. Nobody likes that, but it’ll be nice to have that extra sun at the end of the day. Thinking about a lot of things today, as always. It’s like this constant battle between what I “should” be doing and what I “could” be doing. With my German work ethic, “should” almost always wins. Which means I work almost every night, every Saturday, and I get one day off: Sunday. So, on that one day I have so many things I’d like to do around the house, and nowhere near the time to do them, that it can be hard to relax. Like, I gotta get to it, man! Things to do!… which is similar to the vibe during the workweek. And, knowing that Monday is just around the corner doesn’t help either. We kid about it at work that some days we just sit there and shake because it’s so much coming at us so fast… but that’s sometimes how I feel on days off as well. Like that “buzzing” feeling never really goes away. I don’t think I used to be like this. It’s just how my life evolved. So now I’m starting to take a long, hard look at what I “could” be doing. Because, I did this to myself. Sometimes, actually often, we get so caught up in whatever it is we’re doing, and for me, as a naturally obsessive person – whatever it is can take over, and there’s little or no time to just savor the moment. My natural instinct is to push, push, push, win, compete, overwork everyone else in anything I do… I want to be #1. But when I really take a second to step back and look at things, and think about what’s really important – the only thing that makes a difference in life is being #1 in giving love to everyone around you and making a positive impact on their lives. I’m so blessed to be in a position where we do that for people every day. What I need to work on is maybe: “How can I structure my own days to make a positive impact on my own life?”… because, I really think that I could get that “buzz” to go away, and bring some calmness back, everything in life would flow better. I’ve seen a lot of people retire recently, and after even just a couple weeks, their whole demeanor can change. You can feel it when you see them. So much more relaxed. Pretty sure it doesn’t have to be an either/or situation. Today, we’re gonna have a great day. Really looking forward to it. Many things will not get done, because I have other plans. And maybe, just maybe, I can find ways to get more of what I “could” be doing in and less of what I “should” be doing in the future. Maybe we all could

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